This thesis is part response part exploration into the world of those fighting and losing the battle over addiction. It is meant to follow the progression of addiction, from the root causes beginning in early childhood trauma and abuse, to the continued need to numb and erase the memory of these traumas. These poems, all a blurring of imagining and real, are inspired by the experiences and memories of my sisters, Maria and Marcy, who succumbed to the fatal outcome of unresolved personal battles and addictions, and from the voices of women in recovery; women fighting every day to restore their lives and get their families back. Threads Bared is divided into three sections which follow the stages of addiction, crave, binge, and purge. “Crave” explores memories of the how and why someone begins using a substance, in this case drugs and alcohol. “Binge” follows with poems about addictions and the cycle of recovery and relapse. Finally, “Purge” continues with the subject of relapse and the end result of death. The voices in this collection are multiple and elliptical. Points of view include the many voices of addicts, the personification of the drug, and the voices from the outside, the witnesses. As addiction is cloaked in secrecy this body of work attempts to answer the why, expose the struggle, and inspire a positive outcome for those who read it.
Table of Contents
Introduction -- Crave: Threads Bared, Tool, Hollowant, Heathenly Girl, Bloom, Kudzu, Demi-god, The nihilist, Wheeling, Far from home, Thinking Man at the Colfax Tavern, NM, Gin angst, Sister suicide -- Binge: Solitude Tastes Like Opium, Hex, Golem, White rabbit, Malibu, Beached , Mutable Day Dream, Shooting stars, Scripture According to Jung, Scripture According to Laing, Lost out, ReSet Fail, Half-way home, Residue, Nexus of a Mythomaniac, Coming down -- Purge: Chapter X [Part 1], Today Her Apocalypse Begins, White Rabbit Returns, Project Dungeon, Chapter X [Part 2], Down the Rabbit Hole, Post-Apocalyptic Love, Hooligan, You Still Here?, Vaped, Lost road, Frieze, Willow, Shift, Echo}, Never will, Echo}}, Like Bare Elision, Echo}}}, Ekepepotamena [escape]